Confused while confessing!

Feelings embed in a world of words to become thoughts sometimes. At least for me. These feelings are about a world around me. These thoughts are the gateways for the world to enter ME. This world interrupts into the space within me through my thoughts. I wonder whether I have an antenna tapping out information as signals through my eardrum, right on an unknown side of my head. I am sitting here comfortably observing my thoughts. What I wish I could cuss on are just memories of my past or desires of my future. Understand this thing. My desire to become rich or attain some goal in future is only a speculation. The future is unseen. It may or may not be like I think. It is my own experience that nature does not repeat itself maybe… By concentrating on my future I might be spending my time on something which might not happen. Neither my past nor my future is alive. The alive entity is ME. I am alive here. But my thoughts are not about here and now. My thoughts do not coincide with my existence. Thoughts are dragging me to think what can happen. I don’t know where I am trapped. Maybe deep inside a body which might or might not cheat me. Maybe with an air bubble surrounding me never letting go where I started everything from. The only alive entity called ME! Jailed within me.

Transformation!

Wondering where did those days go....
those days of no worries...no tension to meet commitments..
those days of innocence...purity and clarity in thoughts..

Time when we knew nothing of cheating and cunning of world!
Simple trust and love made our world..
A smile brightened the day...a scolding was the only thing which could darkened our own small world...

True,the world surrounding us then was small...not much exposed to the fast life or to the demanding situations like today's.

when small wishes were our great expectations....small things bought a big smile :)
silly simple things were our big wishes...:)


Time travels very fast...
I was really shocked to realize I have come long way from those small world fantasies..
where did all those dreams go?
I didn't realize those little wants being replaced by big ambitions and me being in this rat race of world...

I cant back off now....whether I have potential or not...I have to complete this race of life..successfully...I can...that's the mantra!

The boy who wanted simple things still resides somewhere in my heart...
Time has caused this evolution...yet like old habits die hard...old dreams doesn't wither soon..
It will be there always...always...like something to hang on to...to remember those days when sun shone brighter....

Longing for those childhood days, to live through once more..

Just mistakes

What would it be like
If I was still me
And You were still You
And I and You
Were still us?

Would the skies be bluer?
Would the hills be greener?
As they were
When I and You were together?

When we weaved lovely dreams
Lived fantasies like they were real
Held hands
Like we'd never let go...

Promises promises...
All's lost
Past

We were just mistakes
Each others...

You mine and me Yours.

Mount of faith!

I feel so infected.
A prism of dark and white,
I revive all my thoughts inside it,
So that the reflection on the white,
would seem black,
And the reflection of the black,
would seem all so white!

I peeped out through the corner of my door,
At ugly breaks of every ten seconds,
But the light reminds me of the burns,
I stare at my hand,
I try to imagine the patch to be dainty.
Nevertheless I rejoice in my skill of seeing the unknown!
i slam the door behind me..
i stay inside,
staring at the checkered roof
i realize that am jailed from all corners!
Black and white checkers on the wall...!

The acquainted alphabets of the yesterdays,
Belong to the tomorrows,
I feel dumb,
Without being deaf.
I can hear,
But I don’t speak anymore.

I shut my eyes,
And then I feel life hitting on my skull with an iron hammer,
I couch myself inside a blanket,
To never come out!
I rot there.

Give me a chance to climb the mount of faith,
Once again!